i feel like i'm suddenly wading through gallons of molasses. everything i do seems difficult. everything makes me upset.

life was great, i was so happy with everything and the direction everything was going in, and then all the sudden everything seemed to shatter.

it all feels fake. it feels like i'm being isolated. i feel left out, no pushed out. i know that's not true, but it feels like that.

i keep having thoughts, bad thoughts, and i'm honestly starting to scare myself. i thought for a while maybe i should leave? but the few options I have for places to go aren't immediately feasible.

this isn't me, I have so much control over myself, my emotions. my normal coping methods aren't working, and I don't understand what's happening. i need help, but i don't know where to turn.